Well, I do have to say that the landscape is very different from the way it used to be. You know, back in the olden days when I was 20. I attended a workshop yesterday called “Choices, Changes and Adjustments.” I think it added to my personal fear factor. I found out that there are things working against me. Imagine the audacity! I know I was certainly shocked. and still reeling from it yet today.
Did you know that at 50-something you’re not so much in demand anymore in the job market? I’ve heard stories over the past few years about how difficult it is to find a job, much less a good job with a health and retirement program. But I didn’t know anyone personally who was in that situation. People who are highly skilled with tons of experience to offer. Yet, they can’t get a job, anywhere.
I believe in myself. I have faith that at the end of this particular tunnel, there will be light. And not the headlight of an oncoming locomotive. I trust (maybe naively) that everything will work out and I’ll be okay. But in the meantime, I’m a little bit worried. Okay, I’m gonna be honest.. I’m scared silly.
I’ve been applying for jobs. Lots of them. I buffed and polished my resume and cover letter. I have sent it out faithfully. I’ve applied for jobs online too. There are many. many to apply for. I’ve had a couple of calls to come and complete entrance testing and it resulted in a couple of interviews. I even had an offer. It was a very minimal offer and I declined it.
Then there are the rejections. I’ve had lots of those. Some blatantly saying I’m not what they’re looking for. Others polite., with a smile even. Thank you for applying, but no thank you.
I’ve been pretty certain about my retirement plan. I’ve had it in place for years actually. To be a Cart Lady at Walmart. No offense to the Cart Ladies of Walmart.. I’m very serious about this retirement plan. I didn’t think it was quite time to pursue the retirement plan. But… I think its time to pull up my big girl panties and face life as it is.
I’m printing out another resume as I write this. I’ll be paying a visit to Walmart this afternoon. I’ll keep you posted.