I couldn’t see it at the time, all of the gifts that were appearing for me during such a trying time.
I think that finding the rental house on the lake was a special gift. It allowed me to live in a place of beauty while I was healing. I moved in there only seven days before that fated call came in Chicago.
Living there allowed me daily walks along the water. Watching the ducks every morning and evening as they grew their families.
It was spacious and comfortable allowing me to entertain family, friends and coworkers.
I had trees to wander through while I talked to God and listened to the wind as it rushed through the leaves.
I had exceptional sunrises and sunsets to begin and end each day.
I had a deck on the water where I’d sit and read and write and watch the boats amble by.
I had a bright beautiful kitchen to cook and create in.
And a big high bed to crawl into at the end of each day. The patio windows across from it allowed me to watch the city lights twinkle and sparkle across the water until I fell asleep.
There were blessings that came with blogging too. It gave me such a wonderful focus. It taught me to write everyday. I had to tap into my creativity. It helped me learn to persevere. And I met the most amazing people from all over the world! Some of these bloggers have become good friends. All of them have offered encouragement, writing support and feedback. Without their knowledge, they all helped to pull me out of sadness and into the light where I could begin to see again.
Three weeks later, I went to see Vicky again. I told her that I’d started a blog and was meeting new people. I didn’t cry until she asked about Scott. It was as if she had pulled off the bandaid from a cut. She said it was progress. I said it hurt. But talking with her was like adding antibiotic ointment and applying a fresh bandaid.
Just like in the picture above. If you look closely, you can see the stained glass hanging in the background. It’s still there, but it’s not the main focus any longer. Looks like I just might pull through.